One month and counting.

OK, so I have all of these great hopes to post everyday and really I do try and think about something cool to post and usually nothing comes up. Well, that's not really true. I have a 3 month old and I have an interesting life, but I am not a good writer. I want to be a good writer. I want to write something that just jumps off the page and captures the reader, but I get lazy. I convince myself that I don't have time to write anything or that no one really reads what I write anyway so then I end up not posting for a month.

So, lately I have been praying that God would reveal areas in my life that I need to work on. I have a tendency to get comfortable in life and just kind of coast through it. That really is no way to live. God can always be working on us and wants to continually mold us into His creation. I want to be moldable. I want to not live comfortably. I want to have deepness with the Lord. But, am I willing?

I have an easy time at pointing out what others need to change or do differently in their lives. It is so much easier to see things from the outside looking in. But the funny thing is that I can do nothing to change them. I can't point out to them what they are doing wrong because I have a plank sticking out of my own eye. How is it that the speck in their eye looks so much worse then my PLANK? So, in my times with the Lord I have been asking Him to first show me what it is that I need to remove from my eye and then how. This has been a long, hard process. I know that God just keeps loving telling me exactly what it is that I need to do, but I seem to have static on in my ears and can't or won't hear Him clearly. "God, please yell because I'm having a hard time hearing you."

So, over the past two weeks I have been in Albuquerque. Away from my comforts, away from my routine and also way from the static. I guess it is easier to hear God when things are quite. I have been reading through Proverbs for some time now and this week I noticed something that I think God has been pointing out all along. A lot of Proverbs talks about laziness. Today I read the very last chapter on being a wife of noble character and oh man... "OK, God I get it!" The wife that is talked about is always busy. Always doing the things she needs to do to take care of her family, her husband and bring honor to God. This is what God has been trying to tell me. I need to be focusing on being this kind of wife.

I find it easy to do the things that I like to do. I like to play with Ryland, I like to spend time with Kyle, I like to go on walks, I like to surf the net, and I can easily fill my day with those things, but is that being a wife of noble character? So, my prayer for right now is for God to reveal to me the things I need to change about my comfortable life so that I can honor the Lord and my husband through everything I do. (It's easy to write about it...)