Being Intentional

One of the things no one told me about being a mother is how intentional I’m going to have to be. It’s (seemingly) easy to answer a crying baby or a toddlers plea for something. It’s easy to see the areas of my house that desperately need my attention. I can fill my day with these things without being intentional about any of it. It’s a lot like auto-pilate really.

But that is not my calling. The Lord requires more from me. He is not satisfied with my popcorn prayers through out the day. He is not satisfied if I give him left over moments just before nodding off to sleep. And He will grow wearing of being ignored.

This is something that every mother should be told before bringing her babies home. Or really every wife before taking her vows. And even still, every child as they are being trained in the ways of the Lord. Life must be intentional. Our relationships with the Lord MUST be intentional.

I will not stumble on extra time in the morning before the babies arise. I will not gain extra moments in the twilight to meditate on things of Him. I must carve those out of my schedule.

For me this is my place. This is where I have created moments to meet with Him. Yes, I believe He meets us anywhere, but I also believe there must be an anchor for our hearts. Early in the morning, before the babies start stirring this is where I come. I choose the morning because that is the only time I can be alone. But it can be anytime really, just where you can meet with Him and hear His hearts cry. 

Sometimes it is mighty and moving and others its just enough for the day. And when it is brightened by the site of life that He gives, thanks to my wonderful sister, it seems all the more sweet.

The Lord deeply yearns for us to give Him all of ourselves. When we do He can begin to refine us. Chisel away at your daily routine a little. Fine and place and some time to give to Him. He will meet you there and He will begin to peal the layers of your soul.

“Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. You shall love the Lord with all your soul and with all your might. And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.” Deuteronomy 6:4-9

Blogged Out

I have been doing the Traverse Blogging thing for just over two weeks now and I am TOTALLY loving the car!!! But, the thing I am not loving is the creative juices or lack there of. We are required to post 3 times a week about the car. That is not hard for me to do... I really do LOVE the car and can think of three different posts per week. The part that I am having a hard time with is blogging on my own blog. There has got to be other stuff going on in my life to write about other then this totally awesome car, right!?!?

So, I'm just going to start in and see where this leads me. Are you ready to come along for the ride... who knows if it will make any since, but at least it's something!

I've been in deep thought lately. Not about any one thing in particular but about my life as a whole. I think I have said this before, but I am totally the kind of person that looks to the future and totally believes that I will be or do better there, just not now. I am beginning to realize that is a major fault I have and I really need to deal with it. I will not be a better wife, mother, housekeeper, Christian, friend, etc. if I don't do something now.

So, what is it that I need to be doing? Where do I start? How do I prioritize the priorities (as my former boss would say)? I know the saying... "just take one day at a time" but that doesn't really work for me since I take each day as it comes and hope that somewhere in the future it will all work out. I need to be an ACTIVE member of my life, not just a bystander.

I really don't know what to do. I am in a lot of prayer and I've been reading the bible more often then usual... but I am still standing here without a direction. Maybe I just need to listen closer or maybe I am hearing God speak and I am ignoring Him, I haven't decided yet, but when I do, I will let you know.

I feel as though I just need and want to be present. To live in this moment. To take advantage of every opportunity to love my husband better, to show my daughter that Jesus died for her, to listen to my friends, to care if my house is clean or not. So, I guess that is where I am starting and in some cases it feels easier then others... but I am not just choosing one area... I'm going to hit them all.

I will fail. I will let someone down. I will fall short of where God wants me. But, that's OK. Perfection is not my goal... just movement.